Attempting a new and valuable relationship I took it slow. I
thought no need to rush, time will tell and besides we aint going anywhere.
When I get to know this person I discover he is such a gem. He is honest and so
sure of himself. He is bold but he also an articulate character he is caring.
So we get into our very deep and meaningful conversations.
Him talking about how his parents have made it to where they are as a couple and
how his father has attributed it to his mother’s strength. He turns and says
good girls are not cool. No young guy during his youth will be chasing some
good girl. Then he turns the conversation by using me as an example. Good thing
he makes his points quite early in the discussions and clearly or else I could
have misread his honouring as him looking at me with pity. He says: “I could
marry you and leave you at home because you are always at home. And leave you
with my children that WE made and see other chicks out here and be dumb and
think why not its only one night”. Then he says: “Chicks like you are boring”.
You would think I was fuming at this point but not in the least because we had
discussed so much together and we have a few understandings. The point I’m
trying to make is that I understood what he was saying.
You don’t; club, party, see that many people, live in your
own universe and go to church what is that? I’m asked this often. I say life
comes in phases embrace this. I was the type that was never at home. To the
point that my mom used to say, “I’ll find you dead in the streets one day”. She
had this fear because I was always on the go. And if I wasn’t out I was in bed
recovering and trust me I was never a drinker either I just love people. I’d clean the house early in the morning just so that I could be
gone before it was lunch time. Before the social networks, before facebook and
twitter (not that I’m blaming these networks) I had a lot of single friends,
fast forward a few years and you find that they married, I’m not. I left for a
year and returned to my home suburb to find a lot had changed as it should. And
no effort was made from my end to try and make life mean anything. I was lazy
to construct a new life so my new life became my own company. Not to say I
should be placed in an asylum. I still see people, I go to concerts, I have
cellgroup every Wednesday of my little life and I get real human interaction but
boring not me, not in the least.
To be perfectly honest I enjoy the company of the older
wiser folk, if not that then kids but the best company is my own company. And
that’s all there is to it.
